Ok, there come the financial complain: I am broke!
The fucking CSN decided, I don't know how, that they paid too much on student aid and will not for the last 8 weeks of studies I have left. WTF?!
So, this month I am struggling with the economy. Thank God I don't have much to pay, but still… it sucks to be broke and not have enough to do whatever I want. Or what my daughter's want.
Hopefully, from august and further, things will change, even though I will not a steady job, but will have a job, and at the end of the month, some money I will be able to count on.
It sucks so bad that, I can't even remember the last time I had to think about not having enough money to pay my bills. I mean, I never been rich, far from it, but always had enough to do my stuff and more.
I had to ask my dad for help, he did, but still, been awhile since I had to discuss with him, or anyone for that matter, about my finances and I feel embarrassed on being a grown up woman, a mother, and not have enough stability to provide to my child.
It is not missing anything for her, not at all, but I mean, I can't take her to the park and buy ice cream for example, or we will not be able to go to the park again the day after, or to the beach…
I just want to cry, on disappointment, but I know that will get better. But still…
I think f al the problems, money is the worse.
Anyway, I am looking forward to start working and feel myself as a person again, as someone that actually produces something, that is needed!
August can't get here soon enough!!
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