Finally, after a very long storm, I could relax and have a very nice weekend. Sorry for the delay on updating, but had much with the school, we moved to another place, and it sucks big time, I had a lot of homework to do and was really tired!
Anyway, I think I finally realized that it wasn't my fault, and could let me be open to new opportunities in my life, and I had a GREAT time! Thanks for asking.
I needed that closure and all that childish behavior to finally realized that I was wasting my precious and very expensive time, putting effort on someone that doesn't want or deserve - for crying out loud - anything from me, except my silence and distance. Too bad.
Some people only realize what they lost when they lose it, with is the case. For me, the realization was for the best. I can finally breathe without having to think if it is hurting someone, or be very careful about what I do or think. Bye bye sucker!!
Well, things seems to be going on a very nice and relaxing way, I am just gonna sit here and enjoy the ride while I can, because you know, based on history, soon or later, shit will happen…
But I am happy, looking forward and in peace. And that is what matter.
School still sucks and I still think I am too old for this shit, but… We must do what we must do…
Be kind people!
tisdag 24 februari 2015
torsdag 19 februari 2015
Liar Liar Pants On Fire
One month since that 19th january where I cried my eyes out, and it still hurts. Not all the feelings and stuff, but the lies, the fact that you believe someone and trust someone and this someone just play with you and lie to you and lie about be lying…
Just sad.
I needed some closure, and I had it a couple of days ago, was painful, but very much necessary.
Now I think I can finally just have those feelings inside me and not let it hurt me anymore, because if someone hurt you, someone you trust, someone who promised not hurt you, it will always be in the back of your mind, but someday, when you think about that person, you will not cry anymore, but will smile thinking about how much you have learned, and how much you are a better person because of that, while that person will still be small and miserable, trying to find happiness while making other sad.
It still hurt, and I still cry a little, but it also shall pass.
Now homework time, because my life doesn't stop because someone is a jerk.
PEACE
Just sad.
I needed some closure, and I had it a couple of days ago, was painful, but very much necessary.
Now I think I can finally just have those feelings inside me and not let it hurt me anymore, because if someone hurt you, someone you trust, someone who promised not hurt you, it will always be in the back of your mind, but someday, when you think about that person, you will not cry anymore, but will smile thinking about how much you have learned, and how much you are a better person because of that, while that person will still be small and miserable, trying to find happiness while making other sad.
It still hurt, and I still cry a little, but it also shall pass.
Now homework time, because my life doesn't stop because someone is a jerk.
PEACE
lördag 14 februari 2015
Valentine's day
Today. Why people need a special day to tell to their beloved ones that they love them? Why is it so hard to show love in a daily basis? Why?
So overrated to have a day to show love. I mean, is not only saying I love you, or give presents, or flowers, chocolates whatever. Is more about actions. For me at least.
I haven't got any flower, or chocolate (except the one I bought for my self) or presents, but I been awake this morning with a very simple, but yet, meaningful text message, that, to me, meant more than any other thing.
Didn't have anything special written, but just the feeling to know that someone thing about you and care enough to send you a text message early in a saturday morning to wish you a happy valentine's day, makes things pretty.
Mine, was sent late… and I know I won't get any answer, but the point of giving is not to expect anything back, so I just give.
And ofcourse I also answered my morning text message sender right after I read the message :)
Anyway… I try to tell to the ones I love and care about as much as possible how much I love and care about them, and I don't need a day in february, once a year, to make it happen.
But, just in case, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!
We should always remember to be kind to one another and always, ALWAYS, spread love!
So overrated to have a day to show love. I mean, is not only saying I love you, or give presents, or flowers, chocolates whatever. Is more about actions. For me at least.
I haven't got any flower, or chocolate (except the one I bought for my self) or presents, but I been awake this morning with a very simple, but yet, meaningful text message, that, to me, meant more than any other thing.
Didn't have anything special written, but just the feeling to know that someone thing about you and care enough to send you a text message early in a saturday morning to wish you a happy valentine's day, makes things pretty.
Mine, was sent late… and I know I won't get any answer, but the point of giving is not to expect anything back, so I just give.
And ofcourse I also answered my morning text message sender right after I read the message :)
Anyway… I try to tell to the ones I love and care about as much as possible how much I love and care about them, and I don't need a day in february, once a year, to make it happen.
But, just in case, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!
We should always remember to be kind to one another and always, ALWAYS, spread love!
torsdag 12 februari 2015
1,2,3 breath!
It's funny how we are never satisfied with what we have.
I am totally bored with what is going on now, not bored exactly, but I wish it was someone else.
Today I realized that I wish to see the white BMW out front someday, and I am not really sure what would happen, or why it would be there, or what I would say, but I wish that.
It is like I am in love, but I am sure I am not. Maybe is the rejection? I don't know, I just know that is not a good feeling to have such a happiness and so suddenly it to be gone! Its very sad and terrifying.
I am trying, very hard, but I don't see anything more than what is happening now, and I feel sorry, because I shouldn't do that to anyone, but what can I do? I am trying, very hard, but it just doenst go….
I miss the time where I was in love with Kevin from backstreet Boys and my only concern was to be back home in time from school to watch their videoclip premiere on MTV…. Good times. Old times!
Well, I have promised myself that what happened last september would not be a pattern and would not happen again because of anyone, and I will keep this promise.
I am totally bored with what is going on now, not bored exactly, but I wish it was someone else.
Today I realized that I wish to see the white BMW out front someday, and I am not really sure what would happen, or why it would be there, or what I would say, but I wish that.
It is like I am in love, but I am sure I am not. Maybe is the rejection? I don't know, I just know that is not a good feeling to have such a happiness and so suddenly it to be gone! Its very sad and terrifying.
I am trying, very hard, but I don't see anything more than what is happening now, and I feel sorry, because I shouldn't do that to anyone, but what can I do? I am trying, very hard, but it just doenst go….
I miss the time where I was in love with Kevin from backstreet Boys and my only concern was to be back home in time from school to watch their videoclip premiere on MTV…. Good times. Old times!
Well, I have promised myself that what happened last september would not be a pattern and would not happen again because of anyone, and I will keep this promise.
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