It's funny how we are never satisfied with what we have.
I am totally bored with what is going on now, not bored exactly, but I wish it was someone else.
Today I realized that I wish to see the white BMW out front someday, and I am not really sure what would happen, or why it would be there, or what I would say, but I wish that.
It is like I am in love, but I am sure I am not. Maybe is the rejection? I don't know, I just know that is not a good feeling to have such a happiness and so suddenly it to be gone! Its very sad and terrifying.
I am trying, very hard, but I don't see anything more than what is happening now, and I feel sorry, because I shouldn't do that to anyone, but what can I do? I am trying, very hard, but it just doenst go….
I miss the time where I was in love with Kevin from backstreet Boys and my only concern was to be back home in time from school to watch their videoclip premiere on MTV…. Good times. Old times!
Well, I have promised myself that what happened last september would not be a pattern and would not happen again because of anyone, and I will keep this promise.
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