On this same day, a year ago, I was sitting on the plane crying my eyes out, can't really explain why, but that was the start of a breaking down that lasted 2 months and took me the psychiatric emergency on my birthday…
Funny how things can change in just 365 days, a year. I am so happy today and making plans and dreaming about so many stuff that is kinds scary.
That trip to Umeå somehow helped me, all the shit I been through after that trip also helped me and made me grown as a person and human being… I feel sorry for some actions and words I said, but all that was something I had to go through to be who I am today, a year after, and to be able to appreciate what came after all that!
We are moving in together, starting a family, a new family, us! That will happen in december. I must confess I am scared, things seems to be happening fast, but at the same time it feels safe. Seems and feels that we already know each other so well, that would be a waste of time to wait longer to make it happen.
On the other hand, with all that, another thing came back to my mind. I want get married. Not exactly wedding, but I want he to propose, give me a ring, promise he will stay with me forever, till dead tear us apart… Will it happen? I am not sure, but I am happy right now.
Maybe is just more a status thing, o maybe is because I never been on this position, I don't know… But would be so nice to celebrate our love with the loved ones, family and close friends, and I would be thrilled of course!
But it is not important, I think it is more important that we both respect each other and want to make it work and we are doing whatever it takes to make it happen. If a proposal or marriage happens, will just to seal what we already have, and nothing else. I really don't need it, but I want to. Will be just as happy without, but…
:D:D:D:D:D
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