I can't stop this feeling...

Quote of the day: "I pretend I am not hurt and go about the world like I am fun".
Sounds as sad as it is. not that I don't have fun, I do have fun, but I have this constant feeling that I am not whole, that is always something missing there. but I am not sure where "there"is.
Complicated.

Have a good and relaxing day at home, slept the most, with I much needed, should study some, but where is the energy to do that? Not here ladies and gentlemen.
Finally friday tomorrow, with means I have to run and do a lot of things that should have had been done on the other 4 days of the week, but mehhh, better do all at once. In a rush! Feels more alive! -not

Haven't started Christmas shopping yet, thinking about doing some tomorrow, and take advantage of the fact that little Miss is not home, so I can shopping relaxed and actually chose things with a lot less of sparkles and glitter! :D Gonna love this little girl!

Got in touch with a friend from my childhood, and it was SOOOOO nice! A lot of memories brought back, happy moments, the fact that he was really annoying and never let me sleep in peace, that he was always teasing me together with my brother. Good times. Wish I was 13 again…
He said he is heart broken. Can't believe it, he was the most and bigger 15 years old womanizer that i ever met, hard to believe that he is now actually crying over a girl. But I guess time changes people, as I said to him about myself.
It was just wonderful talk to him again, and laugh and remember how easy it was to sneak at nights, after our parents was sleeping, and stole their cars and drive around the neighborhood, a dangerous feeling that we will never get back.

Or when he skipped school without his mom knowledge just to watch The X-files with me, and then I had to walk with him in the middle of the night back to his apartment, because he was afraid of the aliens. HAHAHAHA  GOLDEN times!
Now I am the one afraid, but none is here to walk me home in the middle of the night. But this ok. Life is about us getting to face our fears, so I am facing mine.

This is getting too too deep. Time to stop!!

PEACE :)